First Blog: Somewhat Free

Today my boyfriend broke up with me (wow way to start blogging Lee). He broke things off because we both need to work on ourselves. We both have our own issues that we just need to work out by ourselves. He has 2 jobs now and he'll start working out and having a schedule  before he goes into the Navy in June. I have to continue to attempt to get help for my mental illness and maybe find a job with stable income (I work with Doordash right now but the income is not stable at all). I also need to focus on university coming up in August. I somewhat hope we cross paths someday and go out again but deep down I know that is not likely to happen. The only reason why I was pretty upset about it is because he didn't tell me how he was feeling until one of my best friends went and talked to him about practically avoiding me. I guess he didn't know how to tell me without upsetting me which I can understand. He still should've just told me instead of ignoring me. He apologized for that and promised to be more honest with me from now on. Our friendship will stay the same just nothing romantic like dates and stuff we don't talk about on here. I'm actually kind of glad that he broke things off since it may just be the best for the both of us. That's what I've always loved about him. He always thinks about others and does what he thinks is best for everyone even if it isn't the easiest decision. He just doesn't know how to communicate what he's thinking and so I've tried to help him with that. He has improved quite a bit from when we started up til today. I don't think he would've made this decision if we didn't work as a team on communication. He is an all-around great guy so I hope for the best for him. This will be one of the few relationships that ended on better terms. It's a bit to process and take in because I'm not used to being alone since a lot of people like me and so I'm usually not necessarily available but again it's for the best. We will both have more time to focus on ourselves but we are still gonna be close friends. I can sleep easier now knowing that we just might both be happier as individuals and we are still good friends.

Until Tomorrow,

Lee Wilke