Laser Pointers and Retractable Sticks When I Go Nonverbal

    I've had the thought of obtaining a laser pointer or a retractable stick since high school, and this thought rolls around about once every 4-6 months.

    I didn't have the clinical way to describe it at the time, but it was because sometimes I just didn't want to speak at all, and I know that this accommodation could more than make up for how most of my conversations transpire when I didn't want to speak. It made sense to me; I would just direct to where the person could look at for the answer. They could answer the rest on their own through intuition, like when children who aren't able to speak yet point at something for their parent to notice.

    However, I never followed through with fulfilling this desire because I am too lazy and I know for a fact people would view it as an oddity (not that this has stopped me before). People don't generally know what to make of me either, so they resign to saying and thinking "weird" as their most recognizable baseline (Hell, my friends thought it was weird I donned an umbrella during the Spring+Summer to protect myself from the Sun as opposed to using the umbrella for its common intended purpose: the rain. Sadly, the umbrella broke due to strong winds, and I moved on with life). I'm too scared to log on Amazon myself and order the necessary devices (or lack the motivation, because I've done online shopping before). And, there just isn't a necessary enough motivation for me to have to get these things.

    Sure, it'd make my life somewhat better, but I don't suffer from the lack thereof. Additionally, I often am faced with the choice of weighing more in exchange for having these accommodations/quality-of-life objects at hand. I've tried wearing jewelry and accessories more often, but I often give up on them because of both their weight and feel on my person. I like being as bare as possible, as light as possible. I don't like carrying extra stuff for specific scenarios if I have to bear with it.