life >_<

I'm just gonna try to make it work, I really do love her even if it can get bad. But love does hurt. I want it to work but I know it might not. I just wish I could hold her but also be held. I know I'm more on the gay side but I do really love her. She's the only girl i'd even love. But she said she's the only girl that would love me. And that's okay because I don't want another girl to love me. She thought I said that I wanted to break up with her and honestly I don't but if you're gonna threaten to leave me over work then say that you'd send me pictures of you sucking dicks then idk anymore. I really do love my girlfriend but it always gets this way when the haunt opens up. now I can't even talk about work anymore because then she'd get mad. I just want it to work, but I know it probably won't last. I can either thug it out or break up with her like a pussy. Her words. 

I can either be hurt, or be alone and hurt. So I don't know what to do because it's so close to our anniversary but idk how much more of this I can take, let alone if it'll go on for the rest of my life. She told me to keep to things that I'm good at and let her do what she's good at. Like me not working there too because acting is her thing but this whole time I just wanted to work there and work with my girlfriend. Sadly we're both just, not really good for each other because my existence seems to trigger her bpd. It doesn't help the fact she's spiritual in a haunted environment like an actual haunted place. But I'm just so tired. I wish even if we did break up that we could at least still be in touch because I care about her but, that's not how life works. Breakups always end up in falling outs. I wish it didn't have to be like that. 

 Anyway here's my favorite web series. I'm gonna make Creepypasta even if that's seen as cringe but it'll have some inspiration from that. Probably gonna yap about it a bit