Entry #51

got wisdom tooth extracted yesterday, stayed fully conscious. they didnt let my dad stay in the room due to policy, whatever. they pulled that shit out of my mouth in like literally 1 minute and i couldnt feel anything, not even the pressure. it felt good. the woman holding my jaw still had nice hands, it made me want my mom with the way she touched me. got some Vicodin, only 3 pills that theyre making me cut in half. my life is a fucking joke. its fine though, i probably wont need it too much if i just use ibuprofen. the stitching is fucking ugly, but its fine since its dissolvable. at least i didnt go permanently numb, lol. but i feel pretty good, havent had much pain minus after the numbing wore off. they said friday would be my worst day though. cant wait. at least i wont have anymore pain after that for a long time. though im gonna fucking have to go through this 3 more times. god, i feel so pessimistic even though im fine right now. im just grateful that im recovering fine and didnt have to hurt too bad. my thanks, apollon.