Why am I feeling su1c1d4l

I used to feel it a lot but now that I’m busy again with everything, I feel even worse because of the people around me and how they’re just so much more better than me

I’m considering right now to just go to the railway and sit there till yk what, I’m tired and I just want to sleep forever and never ever wake up cause I’m just a shitty person nobody knows about but just my first name