At marching band yay

There was a pretty sunset today ig, I never posted anything related to marching band but 2day I js feel alone? Left out? Why? I always been like this idk, but today is just hitting me differently today

My section which are the saxophones are playing separately w/o me which they always have but since I’m the only alto sax player they’re the ones who are playing my main parts that I for some reason can’t play out loud in the show

Why do I feel left out? They always do this but I never felt that way, im just known as the person whose always on their phone which I am but this is the only thing I find comfort in

I feel like maybe quitting after this season it’s my first one but I kinda find a little bit of happiness in band and slightly don’t wanna quit I’ll probably just play clarinet next season so that nobody will ever hear me play and just be the quiet one that quietly plays which I’m forever used to and will be 

Like always nobody will ever see this :]