The Power of Emotion

The last thing that I purchased (that’s not food related, because I don’t want to talk about the pint of strawberry ice-cream I just bought) is a t-shirt. This isn’t a normal t-shirt though, it’s a shirt that I just bought at the Atarashii Gakko! concert that I went yesterday. It’s special to me because it was 55 dollars plus taxes (ouch! Not the normal price for a regular t-shirt!) and because it’s a keepsake/memento of the amazing night that I had yesterday.

It’s a bit of a tradition that I created a couple of years ago, in which every time I go to a concert I HAVE to get merch, specifically a shirt. I don’t really wear them out and mostly use them as pjs. I don’t really know how to explain it, but I just feel a special connection to the shirts that I get at concerts. I guess it probably has to do with the fact that none of the bands that I liked growing up played any concerts in Ecuador, so now that I’m living in Toronto and EVERYBODY comes here I just have the urge to get something to have as a proof that I was there.

I was a bit surprised that there wasn't really a lot of merch, for some reason I expected there to be a lot of shirts, but there were only two options. I was really debating if I should get the white one or the black one, but black won. I normally like to sleep with black t-shirts because I’m scared of ruining white shirts with hair dye. The t-shirt inside my purse felt a bit heavy when my favorite member (Suzuka) came out wearing the white shirt :’) and I really debated (AGAIN) if I should get another one… but yikes…. 55 bucks….

The emotional connection that I have with the shirt hasn't faded at all, probably because I’ve only owned it for a day, but I feel like eventually it will stop feeling new and feel like all of my other band shirts. The feeling of being at the concert will never fade away though!

It was also the first concert in which I went alone, normally I always go with at  least one friend but no-one I knew liked them or knew about them. The shirt is also kind of a reward for me because if you asked Kiki from 4 years ago if she would’ve gone to concert by herself she would’ve just laughed at your face (my social anxiety was so bad back then). I’m just really proud of myself! It would’ve been so sad if I missed AG because I didn’t want to go alone. Going alone was really freeing for me and it’s something that I would do again!

Here is a pic of the t-shirt from the band’s website, I would take a pic of mine but I’m wearing it at the moment lol.

Also here is my fav song from AG!  (it was a bit difficult to pick my fav one but….) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ye5v9mOkDh8&ab_channel=VictorEntertainment

Aaand here are some pics of the concert ( I was really close but my phone camera was so bad for some reason)