blip theory

still tired.. so tired.. always tired. but life goes on. it kind of has to. new people in my life i’m very fond of. going on that big hike with alice. watching a scary movie with donnie. playing guitar with adam and watching kevin play videogames. things change a lot. i was so scared for a long time, because of change. but it’s always followed me. might as well embrace it a little.

i almost broke my nose today. i was sorting cds from a cabinet and the cabinet door was above me, and i stood up so fast and slammed my face in it. now i have an minor injury and i’m scared it will leave a mark in my face. i hope not. i like change, but not in my face, not so soon. 

i have a theory called blip theory where every single person you meet or see or exist with in your life is there, until they’re not anymore. there’s the before-you-meet, the middle section where your paths cross (the blip) and the after. yes, the blip can go until death. but death is still the after. right now i’m wary of long form blips. it’s hard to be trusting. but i’m trying really hard not to be cynical. but anyway, recently i’m wondering if blips can be reversible. or i guess, if blips can happen, the after can happen, and the blip can happen again. or if that means the blip is secretly not over anymore because of the future that is uncertain. 

okay i’m tired.. goodnight out there