Love life currently

So the last girl I blogged about, we went on that date. It was amazing, she begged me not to go, I drove home from San Diego at around 12am, got home around 2am. I spent like 12 hours with her and we spent the whole time holding hands and kissing, after having talking a month it felt nice. But apparently today she decided she wasn’t ready, hahaha. The downfall started Monday. I was understanding and gave her space, she said it was all new to her and she didn’t know why she was feeling what she felt and that I deserved better. Literally the oldest trick in the book. She tried to make it so that I would look like I was the one who gave up on it but I was upfront and asked if it was something she wanted. She said she did and then said that she wasn’t ready even though she wanted to be and that i deserve the most perfect girl. Honestly, I’m so over it. If she didn’t feel ready and had told me before, it would have saved me a lot of time and energy. I had really started liking her. She was gorgeous too and a beautiful person, we had a good thing going, but I guess it’s not what she wants.