thought dump. (its getting better now.)

life got better. this is gonna be a compilation of  random  thoughts I'm having while studying

- started 8:37 pm UTC +8

-I only ever saw like, homey, non-travel like Japan at night and early, early morning. It's really relaxing, and I hope I can get a scholarship there. :) I've been studying Japanese since I was 10 years old (on and off, so I'm still n5, but still! ik grammar but not kanji,,)

-Sonder is something so weird.  Like in Malaysia, i got a really nice grab driver, and she was super chatty and all that, and even rolled down the windows so my mom could take a picture of the petronas towers.

I'd wanna stay in touch with her, but its weird (like, i know nothing), i have no socials of her, and i think its better off meeting people once and having them stuck with you forever. You get me??? like people who momentarily change your outlook on life and it sticks, like memory foam that doesn't retain.

LIKE

you're clay, and the people who stay longer mold you, and the people you meet once imprint deep on it

-only like, indieish upbeat songs make me genuinely happy listening to them. not like the classic pop and crap, but songs that feel like 2021 alt/indie phase, like wallows, jawny, rebounder.

-nostalgia is so heavy on the heart sometimes it genuinely makes it hard to breathe thinking

"this moment has passed by me and ill never relive it authentically again"

-looking at my friend group currently, and realizing we all have different passions and inevitably/eventually have to separate

inevitably and eventually mean the same thing but inevitably hurts more and eventually accepts it

-ended 11:11 pm UTC +8