Birthdays

My birthday is on the 21st. The thought of being 29, of aging more makes me feel sick. It means that I’m closer to 30 while I haven’t done anything remarkable with my life yet. It means another year has passed of me being unemployed and therefore considered a failure. It also means that my parents are getting older too and they won’t be around forever. There’s so much that I don’t understand and I still need them. I feel so scared when I think of them being gone. I don’t have siblings. I’ll be all alone.