things are supossed to get better but they are not

gosh i know i havent posted for awhile, but im just so depressed and so many things are happening it doesnt make me want to write or do anything at all. ill do a quick recap of everything and then i dont know vent or some shit

1. told therapist about suicide
2. psiquiatra por suicide
3. got on meds
4. now taking meds
5. meds dont work i cant sleep
6. new med, now can sleep
7. now sleep too much

and i still wanna kms, i even attempted like 2 days ago or something!!!!!1!! foiauhefuvnd this shit is not working i even feel more depressed i wanna be in bed all day and do nothing the only good thing is watching shows and doing nothing

i dont want to write more im sorry