FEIN FEIN

praying the block button works on this website honestly inwas fine earlier today but a mf always gotta remind you of things i am in a weird position i am not angry i cant bring myself to exert any more energy on this situation i just feel like if i was the third party in this situation, i would be sad to know of the things that were said to me - despite everything, i truly hope the best for her - all my words, i have meant and they have had weight and above all, they were reserved. this is how it was supposed to end i guess im not sure waht he expected he basically got it out of me to tell him that i like him, acknowledged it, was never explicit and used “relationship” as a descriptor, said things i would NEVER say to a friend - ig we are well i know we are different people and thats where the fault lies- still expected a friendship (did he think that my feelings would disappear with more exposure to each other?), if he had wanted that, he wouldve left me to suffer in silence bc thats what i do best :3 - “thought you understood”?:?:? feigning ignorance is crazy  and on top of that what i remember most is him reading back my entries about him - was it funny? shouldve known from then. This is the last time i write about this situation subject and him. I am making my peace with this and myself. fuck this stupid baka life- kafka