ramble sat sep 28th 2024

sometimes I'm trying to make shit on my computer and I have a YouTube vid in the background and im just like "damn, I wish I was strongly convicted enough to make one thing and finish it like the people in my YT vids."

like I have stuff I've been milling over and adding to and tweaking and things like that but I generally have very little to show for most of it. I don't even really write anymore but I think about writing all the time when I'm watching TV or playing video games or w/e. like "do I have anything to say about this" etc. 

idk I think im just depressed and it effects my workflow and output in a way that's sort of detrimental to making good or interesting things :/