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I try to write about you in beautiful ways but it never comes out how I want it to. the words are ugly and twisted, absent of flow.

 I have this fantasy where if I put all the right words in the right order it will be so beautiful and heartfelt that you can't help but to fall back in love with me. but my mind is so fragmented, poems and monologues pulled straight from the depths of my soul come out as stutters and stumbles till its all just a jumbled mess of words. I want my words to have an impact, I don't want to be confined to these ugly sets of sentences.