You have another girl in your bed

You have another girl in your bed,

and I can barely manage to crawl into mine, I reach and miss the warmth the safety, the I don't know. 
I ENDED IT 

I know I'm the worst I hurt you because I was honest I hurt you because I don't function I hurt you because I'm a mentally stunted emotionally challenged piece of shit yet here I am once again doing the weekly ritual of it getting bad enough I just manage to not text you and beg you to let me drive over and curl up in your arms.

The worst bit is I know you would let me, you would you would you fucking love struck idiot. You would let me come and curl in your arms and cry. You would hold me close and tell your pup that everything is going to be okay. GOD I just I its so tempting I I want to so bad.

But that makes me bad. I'm awful awful awful awful

I need to stop to stop to feel the pain because I deserve it and so much more.

I hope your bed is warm, I know my bed will never be warm enough.. safe enough.. I know I'll never be enough to deserve you.

Goodnight

:3

Eveie