get out

change is not easy. but without change nothing would be fulfilling in your life. you cannot actively fix your social anxiety by using social media to "connect". you have to actually challenge yourself to go be socially awkward and work through it. Even myself, writing this gives me anxiety thinking about having to go talk to people and being awkward but i know the only way that i can change that and grow comfortable within myself is to go and challenge that anxiety, so thats what i do. i crack unfunny jokes, i sit in awkward silence, i try small talk. and the craziest thing behind it all? Im still alive. Im alive and my world is not over just because i had an awkward encounter, or because i didnt know how to keep a conversation going. The world keeps spinning and tomorrow i get another chance, i get to learn from the day before, and the day before that and so on. Again, i know its so difficult to pull yourself into that thinking and sometimes i still find myself sinking back in but everybody is doing all this for the first time and its okay to struggle with something. people will help and no one is looking as closely to yourself than you are. things will be okay in the world if you dont know how to be socially "normal".