alienated - autism(????)

so recently ive been working on a lot of the social skills i lacked/wasnt able to leaarn due to restrictions my dad put on me, and ive been working really hard, yet i still feel like an alien around other people? i feel like im faking A LOT  of my interactions with others, but honestly i cant help it! if i dont fake those emotions and expressions, then im being weird or offputting,, i dont know what to do or how to help myself :,[ 

my mom also cant affor therapy for me D: