Bruh women annoying

I got a girl but shit never simple or easy dawg. I’m so tired of being frustrated , irritated or annoyed all the time. I’m tired of setting boundaries for them not to be respected. I’m a very simple guy. I don’t ask for much at all in fact I like simple meaningful things & im a homebody. I just wanna smoke play the game & watch crime shows. I feel trapped. I’m tired of dealing with her emotions especially on her period. Like damn bitch get It together. I want at least 1 week of no bullshit no arguments no irritation. I truly don’t think it’s possible. Then what’s the point in sticking around ? I proposed but I refuse to get married and shit already fucked up. I’m trying to show I care cuz I can be a very stand off person. I don’t like to hug anybody at all. I just didnt grow up hugging. I hug her when I’m comfortable with it. Sex is wack like stop treating me differently. You been with me throughout this transition and before I even started the sex was still wack. Shit sometimes I just wanna worry and focus on myself and my emotions. I don’t wanna be bothered with anybody. We have this “open relationship” but hell I’m not worried about anybody I’m just tryna do what I need to do for me right now. Getting back to life before I went to jail. Standing on my own 2 feet , getting my car together , making money following my dreams and goals. Yesterday I prepared fish for dinner and left to go make some extra money door dashing. All she had to do was turn the oven on and cook the sides for herself since I wasn’t home and didn’t come home until 9pm. I prepped the fish at 4:30. Like wtf you got an attitude for I prepped the meat and all you had to do was make rice & asparagus. It’s obvious you were hungry cuz you put the meat in the oven while I was still out. This don’t feel like a relationship at all feel like roommates and we fuck every now and again. Ima pleaser who hardly receives satisfaction. Been in this relationship for 2 years. Tf I look like teaching you how to fuck for that long. I’m tired of cleaning up behind her like I’m yo partner not your maid. I need to do what I need to do cuz this ain’t it. I be tryna support her emotionally but I’m tired of the games I’m tired of all the bullshit. Shit can’t never just be simple and to the point. It’s always dragged out which gets no empathy from me at all. Something gotta shake cuz by my birthday I wanna be in a way better position than I was last year. I gotta get outta Texas and do some shit for me alone. I’m tired of all the bullshit and o rather be alone in peace then deal with people emotional dumping and all that. People are so annoying like I’m better off by myself. I don’t talk or have a lot of people to talk to anyway. Shit when they around it’s for what I can do or willing to do for them not just to hang or for some genuine shit. Makes me wanna retreat in my shell and do my own thing. I’m not worried about shit but my elevation. Ion care bout thanksgiving Christmas new year family none of that. I’m thuggin & hustling by myself for myself. Ima get where I wanna be and im not answering to a soul for my thoughts feelings or actions. It is what it is at this point