life

So, months had passed since my first blog... that entry was sooo cringe...

Anyways, updating about my life, me and my girlfriend, we got back together! so im okay now, i have been depressed, yes, i still selfhrmed, yes, but even with all of that, im better!

I have some friends now, my best friend, she's so nice, i feel kind of a warm feeling when im with her, thats actually very sweet, she's very kind.

My girlfriend, she's very pretty, sometimes she does things that i dont really like, but its okay, i really dont mind it too much, she's so kind, everytimes she hugs me, i feel like im at home, sometimes she tries to give me deep kisses, but it turns out very silly, i like little kisses, but when she gives me her deep silly kisses, i dont say nothing, because i love them, i love her, i love her light skin, her dark hair, her dark deep eyes, i love when she smiles, bright like the sun, i love when she makes mistakes, that makes her seem so human, just like me, she's just like me, both of us have this feeling of wanting to completly dissapear, of having this sadness and coldness inside, but even if thats a feeling we share, we are so different.

I say that because, unlike me, she goes to therapy, she is constantly searching a way to be better, she's always trying, she's so bright and perfect, and I, well I accepted my fate, i have been depressed for almost 3 years now, my mother says that i'm just passing thru the adolescence, but i've been feeling like this, so empty, so worthless, since i had awareness of what that meaned.

whatever, i will just get better soon, thats all, thanks for reading!