Fresh Beginnings

Wow, it´s been quite some time, hasn´t it. I don´t really even know who this blog is for. Myself? The people on here who think I might have died? uhhhh. I honestly have no fucking clue haha. But! Hi. Hello. How are you. I´m Sylvie, but in other places people call me Sylv. I guess the short nickname thing from Diogenes to Dio stuck, haha. No one calls me Dio anymore, especially because my discord nickname is Sylv now too. 

I am a Senior in highschool. You could say that my highschool career has been... different from most. Manic episode, isolation, descent into degeneracy, weird arc, new school arc, and now we´re back where we started, in a way. But I´m not who I used to be. 

I came out as transfem (I´m a trans woman) last october, but I´ve known for a little over a year now. Y´all don´t know that tho! I´ve been gone for really long. That´s like.... a huge deal! I could write so so much about it haha, but I won´t right now because I don´t have the time (I´m in class because that´s always when I write these kek). But just know that like... I´m in a really different place.

I´m turning 18 on october 6th. weird as hell. Used to be DYING to become an adult, most of you know that, because I was always whining about it on here haha, waxing poetic. But really growing up is scarier than you think. There´s stuff like insurance and taxes and learning where you want to work and what kind of person you want to be and what to do after highschool that all starts crashing down on you suddenly, and its spooky! I don´t feel ready. But I must be, because well... I´m stronger than I know! Not because of any weak shit faith, but because I´ve made it this far. I´ve done so much work on myself since we last chatted. I have gone through so much therapy, met so many new people... I started estrogen and t blockers!! I´m a changed girl, literally haha

So yeah. Maybe I´ll hang out here every once in a while, but mostly just know I´m good. I don´t really wanna make new friends with minors on here once I become an adult, but those of you who knew me from my edgy 16 year old hypersexual self.... yikes. I´m so, so sorry. I was a weirdo, really struggling, but a weirdo nonetheless. I really hope yall are doing well. Shit can turn around sometimes. I don´t really know if any of my old friends on here are still real or give a shit about me, but ig we´ll just have to see. maybe I´ll come back, as some sort of weird spacehey adult kekeke. But yeah. thats me :) hi, hello, goodbye <3