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ive been thinking about this topic for a while now, honestly. its pretty contradicting, but i feel like its more of a symbiotic relationship between it.
as a 16 year old girl, i am the subject of constant objectification both online and in real life. do i hate it? yes. do i crave it? also yes. i hate being objectified, but the fact that someone would even think im worthy of being objectified is a comforting thought at the same time. i feel uncomfortable whenever im approached by an older man complimenting my body, but i crave it. i dont think is survive without being perceived as an object, because it makes me feel like im worth something.
i feel disgusting after being touched, but i would touch the same places after, wonder what couldve happened if people didnt step in, or if i was alone. i began to stand in front of the mirror quite often (because of entirely different issues, but thats for another blog) and i would often imagine how i would look if i didnt stop anyone. would i even still be here? or would i be in some creeps basement? traumatized, unable to perform basic life functions? or dead? thats something ill never know the answer to, fortunately or not.
ive been quite paranoid about this topic as of late, and id love to hear other people's thoughts about it. i just wish i didnt feel so alone in my thoughts. usually, id share my troubles with friends but this is something that could really dim their mood, so im resulting to this site.
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SakuraSeraphic
What your saying has merit and I like that spacehey is a place were this stuff can reach similar relatable people. As a 17 yr old girl I understand what your saying it has sense I mean if it didn’t why would the song im just 16 exist? I believe that there is some line of recieving praise or feeling accepted when your cat called, complimented, stared at, praised etc but also again that line in which nothing happens more than the compliment you go on with your day them as well- you mention what if your day didn’t just go one and they kept pursuing you and you’d never know the answer.. its totally in your power that is something you can easily know the answer to its complety in your control to be in someone elses grasp but you haven’t for some reason and instead of pondering what if it happens just know it could have by now but you’ve kept stopping it believe that. You talk on after being touched you feel disgusting but you dont mind it if it self afflicted as someone whos dated a asexual person but they would still gratify themselves in private I wouldn’t say what your saying is anything of concern. I’d like to know what the mirror sitch is about but those are my 2 centz ;p