taking care of yourself

so, i don't know if this even counts as 'taking care of yourself', but why is it so hard to keep up with friends and your own needs? like, i'll take a break from social media, but then i feel like i'm neglecting the people i talk to. but then when i spend too much time online i forget that i have a body that needs to be taken care of. i want so badly to talk to/hang out with people, but it just feels like the more i care about someone else the less i care about myself. i don't know if other people feel this way, but i just needed to get it out there. life is so tiring.