Cartoons are actually life saving. / [MENTIONED TOXIC KINNING, TERMINAL ILLNESS, PARENTAL DEATH, EXTREME POVERTY, ALCOHOLISM, NEGLECT, INTERNALISED ACEPHOBIA]

Cartoons are the best thing in this godforsaken world. This year, I've already felt it three times.

DANGANRONPA 2 SPOILERS
Let's keep it chronological. Invader Zim. Before I got into it, I was stuck in a toxic kinning situatuon. I kinned Danganronpa's Nagito and didn't find any other high kins, so I kept bugging myself about the fact he's a multimillionaire (I was very poor, but wouldn't admit it, but more on it in the South Park section), that he's an orphan while I have parents that I hated because they were poor… (Was I a terrible person? I thought you can't be so poor and cool... until I saw South Park OFC). I was also jealous (this is how insane this made me) about his dementia and cancer, I thought I was incomplete without a terminal illness… I ended up manifesting for my parents to die & for me to get cancer & dementia, despite having dementia-related trauma already… But then I got into Invader Zim and realised I kinned GIR, as in a high kin. This character is super silly, no trauma or anything, so he became my comfort kin, I prevented myself from shifting to my Nagito kintype and focused on GIR and stopped desiring and manifesting for bad things to happen to me & my family.

Hazbin Hotel. I always invalidated myself about my asexuality. I kept gaslighting myself. Until I found an aroace character, that had no love interests or anything, yet became my fav, and another high kin as well. That's how I realised that I can be ace & still be awesome! OFC I mean Alastor.

South Park. I regret not getting into this earlier, however despite being an adult cartoon this show healed my inner child (main characters are children anyway). One of my favourite characters is Kenny, and his life is literally what I was coming through as a child & teen (mentioned above). Rats in the house, dirty walls, at some point we didn't even have a bathroom… I wrote about the poverty on here I think but I think I privated those entries. And in such a house, with holes in the floor, was a family consisting of 2 parents & 3 kids. Literally exactly the same. Of course now I'm realising Kenny is my kintype, and probably a high one as well. The only difference I think is that in Kenny's family the neglect was caused by alcoholism, while in my case it was because of a terminally ill family member, still this caused me to have the same relation with my sister as Kenny has with Karen. In the end thanks to South Park I am no longer embarrassed to admit, that I was poor, had rats in my house & rotting dirty walls etc. If a likable character had the SAME situation, does that really mean I'm worse and that poverty trauma is invalid? (Reminder: poverty trauma IS valid)

Yet I will not forget the shame that came from using stuff like "big family card" & not being able to afford dinner. It's really hard to admit to that, ya know. I was probably the poorest person in my friend group, yet I acted like "oh, I don't buy snacks because I'm not hungry!!! I prefer thrift stores because they're more original!". That was very sad, I came to understand it after seeing this one short: Mild South Park Spoilers , realising I have the same trauma as Kenny and he's put there in this trauma video. Of course I do not support comparing characters' trauma to one another. All trauma is valid and everyone copes differently. Anyways, good to have this weight off my shoulders.

This is why I love cartoons. Finding characters that I relate to is very comforting and heartwarming in a way.

I might be childish. But that helps me a lot. And remember:

- poverty trauma is VALID
- neglect trauma is VALID
- asexuality is VALID
- aromanticity is VALID
- being fictionkin/otherkin is VALID
- all traumas are VALID
- all sexualities (except MAPs etc) are VALID

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