Hmmmmmm.....

Lately I've been once again trapped in the endless cycle of yearning to be somewhere/someone else while neglecting to appreciate how good I have it right now... I know that in a month or so I'll be wishing I was back at home doing nothing all day again but that doesn't stop me from wishing I was anywhere else doing anything else!! I leave for school in 2 weeks or so and in the meanwhile I do genuinely nothing all day -- stare at the wall or lie on the ground -- while occasionally shopping for dorm decor or maybe reading a few pages of a book. I haven't really read much of anything this summer which is rather disappointing but I also still don't feel like picking up a book so it's not like my behavior is changing anytime soon. It feels like I've been slowly resigning myself to this reality of becoming less intelligent and filling my brain with things that are mostly useless. Maybe this will all right itself when I get back to school and become useful again. 

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