step back

what exactly is it that i need? what is it that i want? i haven't honestly asked myself that in a while. all of my goals have felt so far that i haven't stopped to think how they could be achievable. 

but what if they are? where do i stand and where do i want to go?

i want to be an artist. i want to live alone and live for myself. i want freedom. i ant the flow of things to feel natural and to work at my own pace. 

what kind of art? that i have a much clearer idea of. sketchy pencil lines, doll like proportions, a sullen atmosphere. but what medium? which one should i finish first?

many questions i have to answer to myself, but ones i haven't thought of in a while and am once again aware of.