endless loop, hope & hair

it keeps repeating. same bad habits and so much wasted time and i'm still unsure how to proceed. yet still, something tells me it's going to change. i'm not sure what, maybe just a change in attitude but i think something's gonna give.

on a simpler note i'm considering not doing anything to my hair anymore. i've been bleaching for so long and as much as i like it, not only is my hair damaged from not doing it properly ( i could have kept it healthy while bleached and i did but then i fucked it up you know) but also maybe it's just time for a change. i've always wanted long hair, like extremely long like helia from winx but i for some reason always cut it. maybe i should stop and commit to it, tho i don't love dark hair on me. it's too much contrast. so i don't know, i'm at a standstill with that.

i really want a cool pair of platforms but i have to save up..and one pair of leopard print jeans too would be cool. 

i really wish something slightly bigger would change. i think i can pick up the pace if things stay the same but wouldn't it be great if everything was suddenly a lot better?