New month, good ol' me

Hi everyone! Back here again!

So, some stuff has happened, mostly just me spiraling down depression once again. And also i'm watching Attack on Titan WHICH BY THE WAY ITS AMAZING, but that's unrelated to the point I'm trying to make.

(There is no such point I'm just rambling)

Despite the fact that me drowning in a cup of water is more common than green grass, for some reason this one specific time has alarmed my psychologist enough to suggest making an appointment with a psychiatrist, which is not a bad thing at all but like... i've been worse.

But to be fair this is the first time in a long while since i've actually felt depressed (most of the time is just... void i guess, or midly irritated) and probably her first time listening to me talk about it.

It's kinda funny how a couple of years ago i was convinced that taking some antidepressants would've fixed me but nowadays i just don't think they'll help much, i think it's because i'm too hyper aware that it's just a bandaid fix for a bullethole type of problem. But eh, whatever makes it waking up from the bed easier is fair game, exams are right around the corner and i don't have the time to sit around and scroll on twitter indefinitely, gotta work!!!

And who knows maybe they actually help and make living a bit more tolerable.

Aside from my annual breakdown not much has happened, i've been hard at work on my thesis and that takes up most of my time, although i still try to go out with friends, it is our last year of uni after all.

Anyways, gotta go back to work. Here's one layout from the thesis! It's exciting watching it slowly materialize :") I'm really glad for the amazing team i'm working with, I think i have more faith in them than the thesis itself and i know that the final result is going to be excellent simply because of the dedication they put in it. I love my friends!!!!