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ive been thinking back to october of last year and oh my jesus and i remember the day i fumbled LOL dude like i haf just gotten the notification i had bren waiting for just for me to like it and leave him basically on read braa im just was so scared of being rejected by someone that i knew i could come to like so much literally up to that point he was like probably the forst dude that had made me laughed genuinely most of the time its me laughing at things i say LOL i sound so corny rn i am hesitating as i type this but i really want him to read this but i really dont bc i know he has something w someone else and i would hate to meddle or even cause him any doubt which in of itself would be amazing in a weird way LMFOA but nk if hes happy, im elated — before the physical, i feel like i got to learn just a bit of him and i was so in it inwant to know everything about him i wonder what he has shared w his person i cant help but wish that was me but idk i would do anything for that man its actually disgusting LOL but its not i love feeling this way about him and listening to songs that remind me of him he makes me want to be the best version of myself i want to study i want him to think im smart i want him to think im pretty i want him to think im funny i want him to think of me at all times just like i do i wish i could reach out to him and vice versa, i would love for him to text me every day i wish i was around him more and more until i got sick but i know i wojldnt get sick of him which is the most gut wrenching thing ever LOL theres people walking by me rn and its so awkward just sitting on a park bleachers on the verge of tears eeewww but its lit i hope Allah intertwines our paths so much so it turns into one i just want to make him happy actually no i want him to be happy preferably with me i want him to know how much solo quiero que sepa cuanto lo anhelo