life update

It's been three weeks since I posted here for the last time but so has been going on with my life since.

first of all, I stopped the guy I was talking to. thankfully. It wasn't easy to do, but I think it was a lesson for me. also, it showed me what kind of boys this generation has. unfortenetly. trying to "act like a man" or show off the way you do is totally pointless. it just shows that he could care less about anything but hooking up with every girl he talks to. If it is the love I will receive I don't want it, I'm sure he's a very smart and nice dude but I am not looking for what he is.

second thing, I visited the city of god again, but this time it was the best experience ever. I've been there so many times as a kid and as a teen but now it was so special. I saw so many different things and places, it felt like I went back in time (for the good and the bad...), I'm so grateful for the opportunity to see and explore this beautiful place. thank god I can do so. 

third thing, is something called "school" starting soon? I've never heard of that... the people there must be so sad to go back... okay fr now, why school should start again? didn't I had enough drama this summer? honestly, I can't stand most of the people in my school. either I hate you and I won't talk with you of my own free will or I actually like you and I'm nice to you. sorry but it is what it is, I will not act like I am enjoying being with you while I am not, I won't be like "Hey I wish you fell down the stairs" but I will act the right way. I can't be friends with everyone and I don't want to.

after all, This is not the end if the relationship with someone falls apart. this is not the end if something goes wrong. this is not the end of someone acting rude. this is not the end if plans go wrong.

thank god I am here alive, with a house to live in with a family who loves me and cares for me, and knowing that there is a god who will never give up on me because I will never give up believing in god this way. I'm sure god has some big plans for me and I just need to wait until it will happen.