Aaaaa

I’m so stressed about finding work. 😩

I hate being disabled, not disabled enough apparently to be eligible for SSI but definitely going through things whenever my body feels like acting up. It’s not just my body either, like I can’t function as a ‘normal’ human being because my brain presses the panic button over the stupidest things. Yet even people in my family have the audacity to say that I’m using these things as an excuse. I didn’t ask to have these problems. I don’t want to be so scared of stupid things that I shake and cry. You’d not want to do the simplest of things either if they made you feel like you’re in danger for absolutely no reason. I can’t turn it off, I can’t ’get over it.’