The agony of empathy.

Empathy is the most beautiful and horrible things I've got. The thing is, mine is not simple empathy. It's the soul crushing empathizing with people u know you shouldn't empathize with. When i look at others, i always look out for excuses or justifications for their actions, but i can clearly see others don't do that. If someone says something that is a little controversial, my heart will always tell me to think about all the possibilities of what they meant. To basically never judge, except for a few kinds of people. To always see the good part of everybody, even when others can't see it. I always have the urge to excuse everyone. And it just confuses me and upsets me when others don't, i don't know why. Others just don't see things like i do, that's what i've learned from experience. It just hurts my soul and mind to see others get hurt and feel bad. Anyone, really. It's fucking me up but i love it tbh.