idk why i want to write this but i do want to.

it's a little corny-

 It had its better days, summer 20##. I wore earbuds on the bus going to my school as a 9th grader. I can't wait to see my friend Lana. It's hot, and I am just there to see my friend. I get there and I find them all in a group. it was weird because a few weeks ago I slept over at Lana's, after that, I kept asking but she said excuse and excuse. but anyways. I have a deep connection with some of my friends I like to hang out with them a lot alone and just the two.

mostly lana. I was ## at the time, after a few weeks something happened that broke my friendship group and I was the only one on Lana's side. they said it was her fault... but I saw everyone else go away but me. middle of September comes around and I have to go out of the city just for a week though. they said Lana got mad at someone. I came back the next week, but she wasn't there that day. I thought she was at a place getting help but after a week I didn't see her. I was worried but too scared to go to her house if she just wanted to be alone. two weeks, three, four, 2 months, 5 months, may comes around. the end of school was around.. no sign.. my friend said she saw her at the store in January. I haven't spoken to her or come around her house. I have moved on by then. new friends and still old friends. next year I was hoping for her to come back. she didn't... I moved to a new school. 

I always think about her. I didn't have a crush on her but I was there for her. She could be dead, missing, moved, or just banned from talking to me. Since when she disappeared I haven't gone and looked for her. it's probably better if I don't, I have to forget some people and I think she's of the ones I want to forget. I have much bigger things to worry about.