8/23/2024

I am a " family means everything" and also a " family doesn't equal blood". I find myself trying to make my friends my family knowing they do not see me that way. I claw at them to stay to make a founded or makeshift family, but it never works. I feel bad for wanting a family, I don't force anybody to stay but I do feel terrible when they don't. I love with my entire being. It's in my DNA to give everything of myself and always be there for people I claim as my own hoping that one day they might do the same for me. 

I have a loving partner, and her mom are about the most family i have so far that arnt terrible or have to perform for. my best friend just cut me out for being trans and i don't really have anyone else in my life. 

i am disowned by my family ive had for 9 years because i went to a mental hospital, my bio family sucks, and my sister has her own family. 

sometimes i feel so unsupported and lost. do not get me wrong my partner and her mom are amazing and they do their best , but i cant put all my needs of support and family onto them because that isnt fair to them yk. i just wish i had myabe one or two more people that i can be all in for and they are the same for me