hi h

I'm supposed to be sleeping rn

but like

i wnna do stuff still

okay bye bye

.. Just kidding it is not bye bye yet

went 2 a thrift shop jn was super fun i spent like 2 hrs there it was super nice 2 look at things

i got cronc and eddi from porrororrriiooo. pororo. little figures yay ya y yay.

Also super cute handeker. Handerkerchiecfe. Handkerchieefe. Little towek and thinv Little towel thing.okay.

.ily ❤️

ilove you i love you 🪲

ohmy gosh

i love you so super much

who is this directed to? idk. bugs, probably. ANd Also....i dunno.

I have been talking m.Younnow. Yknow, to my bear. Bear. As in teddy bear. She js so pretty she's totally a lesbian idc what you say

Angway. I have been lkke Oracticing Yknow. Languages. By talking to it. It is fun. So haply happy fun. So prettyy.

So fun. Anyway yeah. That's all good ig ht.

Just kidding that is not all

i wanna read like. a book or something. i read a lil bit of aome i got last time at a book store about bout moths and buttsrflies.

Oh MY GOSH i love i love butterflies and moths and bugs and crustaceasns and fish and the earth and everything

but I lovw him the most. it's

it's .....

it's a secret i won't tell

uwha.oh may gosh. Oh my gosh . i am. so sleepy.

am gonna sleep or something.

but like might as well do talking about stuff. I'll make clearer sepreate blog for it l8r more in dephth and stuff

but like....age regression, as in my experience of age regression, i used to experience in a way i though it was sposed 2 be because mostly of online spaces

and like. mostly tried 2 match aesthteic sin stead of thinking what i needed at the moment

like, now , it's something more private for me. It's something somewhat personal, and not aestheticized, yknow ? i like bein pretty yeah bur like...it's not smthin i focus on. I cry and I cry and I get so scared that I wanna just hIDE. i wanna just HIDE from everyone and everythin and it's all like...useless junk yknow? Yeah something ljkr thst. anyways so

i find that age regression to me is just sometimes hwen like. I find myself unabke to do anything anymore m. like. i just. shut off or sometimes odmethin triggers it. like maybe when i get duper stressed out and i wanna rip my heair out after screaming loudly into a pillow nad wasting my energy on stuff liek i just get so dumbfounded

and ji feelddossooooo sooooo like. usekess?l is that the word? anyway yeah like i just can't do anything and like i just cry ortry to and that's all. sometimes after i calm donw I'm still sorta liek...loopy. only word i have. and I just can't anymore so my brain just resorts ti thinking at a level thst i can t hink at that time. like, it stops working for things

and i find myself like a child again. I'm technically still a child, since I'm under 18 but that is like...imagine a 5 year old.

Imagine someone who is liek....doesn't even know how to put ona a coat correctly. Yeah. That's the level i get to.

and most all of time i age regress without meaning to

i do things for myself to make it less stressful aka i hide in my room or safe places until everything goes away just like...it's i just gotta wait it out or sleep. It's not really good nor bad experience, mostly just it's caused by bad experience

I can do stuff to make it suck less like go to sleep or watch some stupid dumb dumb cartoon but like. it's still. it still sorta sucks when you feel like evrtythin you do someone's gonna get mad nd yell at you for it and your wrong for doin anythin your wrong for existing and all i wanna do usually is just cry and go to sleep

yeah. age regresssion is a weird thing fror me. It's just when I my brain can't anymore so it just doesn't and sometimes i can't do anything but comfort myself while i wait for it all to pass

like yeah sometimes i do do things I'd do when I'm regreserd it's not all negative but most of the time that is just me giving into my childish tendency s not being age regressed

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hi h

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