bad things happen to good people.

before I start complaining about my life I want to share with you my thoughts about my last trip

I went to the city of god this weekend, if I didn't have faith I would have started hating this city. The experience was really unpleasant, I felt like I was in a shopping race or "partying all night" kind of vibe and sorry, this is not my thing.

I'd rather visit holy sites much more than go shopping or partying. I can't explain how much I love this place, I will sacrifice my life for this city (no joke). Hopefully one day I'll move there and live the life that I want to live. definitely not like now...

I am surrounded by idiots and anti-empathetic people who only care about their own.

One of the girls who I considered my bsf won't stop calling me a whore for liking someone, making comments about things I am doing, and generally acting like a total bitvh. like, what do you care what am I doing? not like I'm hooking up with random guys or something. not even posting exposed pictures of myself. I am the last person you'd see post herself in a bikini or mini dress. and if I was like that what do you care? are my mother? the flip? why is it so hard for you to compliment and be happy for your friend?

another girl, that I'm 80% of my time with, always making up cheap excuses about why she can't meet up with me and go meet up with her other friends who don't even live close to her. who doesn't even care about her. and when she understands that she goes cry about it with me. maybe when you start acting like a good person good things will come your way. and let's not talk about that when she had boy problems I was the only to help her but when i told her about one of her friends she acted weird. like, where is your girlhood?

why do good-hearted people always have to suffer? GOD WHERE ARE YOU?

i won't even mention the guy I am talking with because this so unnecessary