Trash by Alex G and what it means to me

when i say what it means to me, im not saying that this is what i think the song itself means. what i mean, is that this is what i think the song means in relation to me and my life.

Trash is about how i take comfort in my crushes, fictional or not. i like to daydream about them understanding me. and i feel like this song is about that. 

the first part i feel like is me talking about my life, then it switches perspectives. "wound up tight ill... spend the night. i never wannna think agian, i never wanna see it when." about me curled up in bed trying not to worry

"the kids on the carpet have to go their separate ways" about how ive walked away from many friendships

"the heartache that theyre feelin has been filling up the place" about how people i know, particularly my familys pain that they havent fixed has filled up my house

"if you never drink the poison then your never gonna cry" about how im telling myself that i need to cry, but i cant

"if you dont believe in magic then you shouldnt even try" i feel like this ones about how i have these weird connections to things, like how i did when i was a kid, in a way thats kind of spritual but not really. like how im obsessed with rain and angels. 

then it switches perspectives to the character or whoever

"you look nice babe. dont think twice. the world is a scary place, and i can tell from look on your face." 

"your life was all over way before it all began" i imagine this is more of a joking exaggeration pointint out how my life was "doomed" from the start, with my family and everything else

"if you dont want to be lonley then i can be your man" obviously, talking to me about how im lonley af

"i know that your mommys getting underneath your skin, but girl its all a fucking joke so just live it while you can"  if you havent seen any of my blog posts, i have huge mommy issues. 

and then, in my imaginary music video at the end i cry in his arms and kiss him <3