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SO many things have been happening and ive been SO depressed that ive been not writing anything!!!! so, this is gonna be long (if i dont give up)!!!

but wait! good things also happen!!
birthday was great, got presents and went to museum and then was with friend, love friend!!
I LOVE THE BEATLES THEY MAKE ME THE HAPPIEST EVER I WATCHED THE A HARD DAYS NIGHT MOVIE AND HAD SO MUCH FUN OMGOMGOMGOMG!!!!! AAA I LOVE IT

that was all the good news.
back to school, i should shoot myself. i hate school and i hate the people on school. i know they hate me too, so it's fine. not even my teachers like me, and theyve got reasons not to so it's okay too. 
the thing is school is the cause of all my problems, ive was not taking pills all the winter break, but when i got back to school i took like 6 in the just the first day!! im fucked.. 
it dries me out, i get home and all i want to do is watch shows and be in bed... 
but thats also because of insomio, im up till 5 am and then have to wake up at 6. but for some reasons those are the best days, i am super active and i feel extremely happy!!!! is there a reason for that?? i dont even feel the need to take ibuprofeno!!!! its quite nice.

thoughts are back. the other day i told my psicologa i usded to have them but that i dont have them anymore, lied. dont want to talk about that

also, i was trying to leave back religion but shit happens (feel miserable) and i think im going back. 
when im very blue, when everything feels like shit and when i feel like everyone hates me; it comforts me to think there's someone, somewhere, watching and loving me, even if im the worst person on earth.
so that's where i go to religion and think about him, him who came to earth and was human, him who could have not but did, him who could have stayed in the promised land but decided to come and save us.
but i hate going to him, because i know it means im bad, it means im at my worst, and thet when im happy again, i wont thank him, because i wont believe in him.
i hope he still loves me even when i dont believe in him.

THAT WAS TO DEEP IM HAPPY NO ONE READS THESE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i finished the walking dead!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wow.. gonna make an entry about that later, dw (nobody cares bro)

well, that's all i remember right now!!!!!! i would try to be more active