My brothers used to have a sister

Please don’t be mad at me. Will you be mad at me that I wished to disappear? I hope I’m not my brother’s sister, so there’s no girl watching in the corner just relapsing to those times she used to be their princess (if she ever was). I hope my mom is not my mom, maybe she’s chill now without another child to pay for.. a child who ask for too much. Maybe she’ll just be at home happily without worrying for anyone. No stress of a child, no obligation to anyone, just happily retired. I hope my dad’s not my dad, maybe he’ll be free to buy all the clothes he wants without thinking to hold back because he has a daughter who probably needs the money. I hope it’s not.. “They used to have a daughter/sister” but rather “They never had a daughter/sister”