Saying goodbye is harder than i could have imagined

Yesterday I said goodbye to my friends. This was the closest to people I have ever been in my entire damn life. I knew this day was coming. Logically I knew it was unavoidable, but emotionally I had never really processed it. We spent a good chunk of Thursday together, all 5 of us. It just further reinforced how much I love all those bastards. One of them has been my closest friend for 7 years. We've been through it all. In the last 2-3 years this solid group came to be; mostly through all being in an acting class and program. And then came the end of the night. My goodbye to the friend of 7 years wasn't as heartfelt as would have liked, which is a stupid move on my part. I made fuckin jokes and i regret not being more earnest. At least I'm still in contact with him. Anyway usually I give one of them a ride home because his house is the same direction as mine. After we all said our goodbyes it was just me and him. He used my phone to put My Way by Frank Sinatra on and we sung like there was no tomorrow. That alone alright got me a little choked up. Then we made it to his house. We got out of the car and he gave me a hug; i told him i was really gonna fucking miss him. I don't know why that was what really got me. Then he queued up The Rainbow Connection from the Muppets Movie. As he waved goodbye and i pulled away i broke down. All of the emotion that had been building since the summer started. The fast approach of the end was finally here. I cried harder than i have in a long time. I cried all the way home, which is like 40 minutes. I know that I'll see this people again one day, but its just hard y'know. Sorry if i sound hella whiney. I know there are those with so much bigger problems than me. This is just what's been on the mind as of late.

keep your friends close

see you whenever