I saw my friends yesterday

I can't believe I don't see my friends more often. The last time I saw them was about three weeks ago and I know nothing too dramatic happened during that time, I was still really missing them. Usually I can't tell if I'm actually missing someone (idk if that makes any sense), but I felt it so deeply this time and I couldn't shake the feeling. It's mainly because I was under the impression that I would go to my friend's birthday trip so I thought there was no need to see them if we were just gonna see each other again soon, but last minute I couldn't go because my parents didn't let me. Yes I am 20 years old. Anyways, so my time away from them from them was longer than it should've been. Why don't I see my friends? I can't I didn't take advantage of that when I was in high school. I saw my friends everyday in school, and instead of hanging out with them during lunch or after school, I was in the bathroom reading and vaping, alone. Why wasn't I with my friends? I love being with my friends. I love trying new foods and doing groceries and sitting in silence watching TikTok's and binging shows and taking walks and going on drives with my friends, I love doing everything and nothing with my friends. Just being with them makes me so happy. Who knew that a trip to Michael's with my friends was what's gonna give my life meaning again. I'm so excited to move in with my friends. I know not everyday is going to feel perfect with them, but just having them around me brings me so much joy and comfort. I love my friends <3