highschool relationships

yello, 

i am so glad im not in a relationship tbh... 

i go through the stories of people posting their one year aniversaries 

and it makes me thankfull im have things after highschool. 

literally what would i even do with a boyfriend rn? 

ignore his texts like??? 

theres so much time for me its kinda awesome! 

of course sometimes it is frustrating, 

im still frustrated that the man I broke up with, 

lingers in my brain , a YEAR after I broke up w HIM, 

literally whenever im on my computer i still think about him, 

him opinions on the games im playing, 

its frustrating. 

but i guess its a blessing i cared about someone so much, 

i just wish it was that way with more people. 

like its kinda hard for people to have a lasting effect on me. 

like people could be in my life for literal years, but ive completetly forgotten about them immediately after they left :-/ 

but i suppose im only human, 

hopefully this year i wont tweak as much around him 

as in my stomach wont completely kill itself like it did last year 

and did at registration, 

why am i so nervous liek hes not gonna shoot me, 

he literally doesnt give a shit, as he should 

idk im just crazy ig. 

but ot my original point im excited for what beyond highschool holds 

so i can forget everything hopefully