me and him

I'm losing my mind trying to understand what he wants from me.

we were supposed to meet alone just the two of us. I was so excited about it because it meant for me that he probably sees me the way I see him.

but his boss put him for another two hours at the cafe he works at and I thought he was lying to me to go meet with someone else. I took it so hard and cried all night and listened to depressed music while thinking of the worst things that could happen but he really just was stuck and had no choice.

he apologized and wanted to meet me again but I rejected the offer since I didn't feel like I could see him without feeling bad, just the thought of him going out with another made it even worse.

were talking daily and stuff on insta, whenever I post anything he always replies to the story or note, and it kinda looks obvious he wants to talk with me (not to show off or something, just the hits I'm getting from him) but it's like I'm getting mixed sighs.

sometimes he replies right away and sometimes leaves on seen. like, excuse me? Are you playing? and then he literally wants us to go together to a concert and sleep in the same room after, what do you think am I a whore? hell no.

I got REAL issues trusting men when it comes to these topics.

I really want to understand what he thinks about me and our relationship but I won't ask.