erm... what the flip flap?

"i dont understand why the moment we told you that you were wrong and that you had been spreading lies you didnt back down an immediately apologise to me and dad. instead you didnt care, thats not how a normal person acts. you should apologise now, i dont care that your too tired. we have to deal with the thing YOU caused, its unfair that you just cant apologise." 

hmm... that sounds ever so slightly narcissistic and controlling. im not forgiving enough? i didnt bow down and say sorry immediately, so you came in a berrated me verbally for DAYS until i broke down and said how bad i felt and how sorry i felt. and even then i knew i didnt let you win, i just apologised for survival. because you called me a liar and that i ruined his friendship and dad didnt even wanna fucking  see me in the same room with me for 6 FUCKING DAYS. like i was some sort of fucking freak or monster like the scapegoat i am to you. the fucking balls you have to say that "we have to deal with thing YOU caused" is mindblowing when its my FATHER, my own FATHER who caused it. he wrote those messages, and i still think SOMETHING happened. i dont care that theyre were "like brother and sister" i saw dad talking about how much he loathed you, calling her a cocktease and her saying hes going to miss him. and how far, far up your own ass you have to be to say "yea, and what? thats even more reason to be mature" after i told you, hey. IM 14 FUCKING YEARS OLD, THIS IS AN ADULT PROBLEM THAT I SHOULD NOT BE INVOLVED IN!! and whats even more assholey is to be to my dad "ohh you should think about the fact that shes only just a kid, she just.... doesnt understand whats shes done! must be from the internet, mustve learnt something online."

oh, and dad. as much as i appreciate you for apologising to me, did it really have to take mum to tell you im just a kid to do that? wasnt that really fucking obvious you dumb cunt? 

sheesh, that was certainly a mouthful!