theres no way people can feel bad forever right?

i dunno like my life is going well now yk is like REALLY GOING WELL because like last year it was so fucking bad bro i was always cuttin myself i was going to psychiatrist and psychologist and taking meds and stuff and now im like okay BUT IM ALWAYS FINDING SOMETHING TO MAKE ME FEEL BAD BRO LIKE every fuckin night im feeling bad as shit with NO FUCKIN REASON and i just dont understand and sometimes i do stuff like that i dont want to just like feel bad AND I HATE MYSELF SO MUCH CUZ LIKE IM THE ONE MAKING ME FEEL BAD FOR NO REASONNN FUBSDFBLDJKBFLKSDBFJKBSDJKFBJSDKBFJKSDB I HATE THIS SHIT SO MUCH CUZ IF IM SAD I HURT PEOPLE AND I DONT WANT TO I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO