People are let downs!! MY RANT

Why I officially give up on my inner circle is pretty obvious. I made a blog before but I will write it again with better points of reference. Lately, all that I have going on in the past year I would figure some of these "friends" would eventually show their true colours. 

Not trying to sound cliche but when you really look at peoples actions, it speaks louder than words. 

So I am doing this fundraiser online just to help with some moving expenses and figured the people I know personally would not let me know, they would donate $2 to my fundraiser out of support consider the circumstance of the situation they would help pitch in. Perfect strangers and I mean every word of that (my horror movie peeps/fans) have decided to step up to the plate to help. One part of me was happy to see some donations come in. And the other part was making me think "Where are any donations from people I actually know". Yes, thank the LAWD there is people that are Team Aurele and wanna see me get on top! How cool is that? It truly makes me feel good and optimistic about the future. 

However, I have also come to realize stay in my own fucking lane. Cant expect a bunch of people who are grapes and cant make juice!!! If you feel me!!! 

I have give up and it shown me hey they have just faked it the whole time and when I came to the realization of that it kinda made me depressed. I always say they are like flakes snow flakes, once they touch your skin they evaporate and are gone. It made me think what was the point in all that? Keeping in touch over the years to just be let down. 

It only gets worst.... lol 

I tried to get back in contact with old child hood friends, co workers people I really enjoyed hanging and kicking back with. But this story is just a mere shred of the darkness I have been dealt with. Friends wise. None of them have any high goals. They have never even left the country. Nothing. Small town people that deep down are scared. Maybe EVEN JELLO!! Of someone trying to crush their dreams. 

I went through all this crazyness with people that I just want a break. I feel as human beings we all can relate, you go through friends and go....if I do this again is it going to be a waste of time? When you could have put time into YOU time and actually getting something done. And I find some people maybe its my bad luck BORE THE F out of me!!! Like damn okay we get it. You love nature or some sht and go and on about the dumbest things! I dont know I manage to make my dreams come true at a very young age <3 props to me!! 

So to see people sit their and B!TCH about something that can be so simple and fixed if they tried. I just cant even function, this is not a case of opposites attract!! FCCCCCC no!!! 

I have this one childhood friend who I would always turn too....and she was a big cheerleader. Then after a couple years break I find out shes changed. All my friends have. Its a real hard one to talk about. A lot of them are into hardcore things that I just cant do! 

Man, most of my friends too that I made in the last couple years are drug addicts. Man oh man. I could go on. 

I feel like I had some bad luck but I am willing to turn this sh!t around!!!! 

Everyone around here is like super how do I say?? STUCK UP WITH NO MEANING!!!! Simpletones!!! iiii GET ME OUT OF HERE IM A CELEBRITY! LOL! 

Anyways, I wanna share with you next time some of my storys that have pretty much said to myself "fck this, lets pick ourselves up and get away from unhealthy people" 

It made me go...they are never gonna evolve or progress. To newer versions or do anything really for that matter. 


I am everyones biggest supporter! Rooting them on! But sometimes....you get sick of rooting them on and them not root you on back when you are shining! 

FAKE F's to say the least, maybe its a sign from the the world everywhere....move the F on!!! 

lol 

Maybe.... and shoot, I will take their subtle hints and fcck right the f off! 
aurele xxxxx