Pretty quiet and awkward at home

Date: 5 august 2024 

I'm writing this at 00:45 and I need to get up at 08:00 to go to the doctor. Not gonna be fun. My brother has been avoiding my mom and when I saw her standing next to him trying to ask him something he didn't reply. She asked the question a couple of times but he never even looked at her. I wish it wasn't like this. I also wish I didn't have to lie to my friends abt why we can't be at my place. I'm gonna meet up with them tomorrow, we'll go swimming. I don't like exposing myself in swimwear but I really miss being in the water. I'm just gonna pretend like I'm not insecure and hopefully I'll fake it till I make it. 

- Elliot