socializing is hard x.x

idk how allistic and neurotypical ppl do it, it can be so difficult for me :[

managing every little aspect of a social interaction is so tiring, from managing my tone, my body language, my facial expressions, managing the other persons tone, body language and facial expressions, keeping track of what i say so i dont say the wrong thing and give proper responses, its all SO MUCH to think of at once????? im so glad i have friends who i dont have to be constantly worried about this around, if i didnt id be a hermit and never talk to anyone

im 22 and im still learning, so for all the baby autistics out there, theres no timeline where you "have" to learn anything