i hate the things i make.

i can't seem to make what i like out of my mind!! i wish i could cut my head open and pour my thoughts onto a piece of paper and be done with it!!! i wish i could express things well, but i'm so so tired of being upset with what i make. i want to be good at it. i want to try. i want to spend hours and hours on a project and BE HAPPY WITH MY RESULTS! i want to create what i like, i don't like being judged or criticized but i know its important. i want to be able to receive criticism. i want to be good at art and drawing and not give up halfway.

i want help. i want to know what to do. i want to know how to keep myself going without feeling burnt out. i'm so tired.