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Sometimes I wonder if it's even worth it following the plan.
What's the money going to do, i can never repay the amount of money I've taken by living. Maybe I shouldn't take the car, the moment I'm gone it might get stolen before it's found since I am leaving it unlocked with the keys. Would a letter even be worth it? What would I even write there, it would be filled with empty words that I don't mean. I'll probably leave my clothes behind as well, why get them dirty when it could be sold after.
Am I just wasting my time by making a plan.
I really don't know what to write in the letter. "Sorry for the trouble" maybe? Well that isn't a letter that's a note so it would need to be longer or at least that's what normal people do. They probably won't read it either way so why bother.
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chronically.hikiko
people care about what they have when they've lost it. they'll read the note, nikko. if you need to leave them, leave them with something you know will get the reaction you want.
or don't and let them wonder.
or keep living and make them jealous.
I want the exact opposite of that hikiko, I need to do something useful before so it won't be a hassle, a waste of money and time.
I don't want anything to happen, I want them to ignore it.
But that's not possible.
by NIKKONIKKONIKKO!!!; ; Report
why are you so docile? its not your fault you're here, it's theirs.
i dont understand the way you think
by chronically.hikiko; ; Report
I don't like to blame other people for my own problems. I don't hate being born, i was a gift to them, not a fully welcomed one but a gift nonetheless.
I don't want my guardians to waste their time anymore.
by NIKKONIKKONIKKO!!!; ; Report
Kaznik
I don't know you or the situation you're going through right now, but if this is what I think it is, please reconsider it as much as you can.
This isn't a decision we are exposed to regularly, and it's really hard to take.
I've sen your past blog entries and they seem quite disturbing.
Loneliness is a painfull state that's hard to get out to.
I really really wish you the best.
You can make things better.
I'm not all here most of the time so I don't know what the norm is when responding to these kind of comments.
I appreciate the fact that you took time out of your day to comment but I can assure you that I'm fine, or at least as fine as someone like me can be. This will probably pass in a few months.
by NIKKONIKKONIKKO!!!; ; Report